"Though she be but little, she is fierce"

I know in reality there are babies out there who have been through way more than Pip...I know first hand seeing little babies who were suffering far greater than Pip over her numerous hospital stays...But I also know my baby girl is FIERCE...


The other day as I was looking back at pictures of Pip, to use for the #31 for 21-Down syndrome Awareness Challenge, I felt almost like I had been punched in the gut...Shocked by how little, pale & frail she was before her heart surgery...


When she was in heart failure, as a mumma you just go, go, go...Do what needs to be done & focus on the next day at hand...You are in the moment but not really- Not in a way in which you are reflecting or processing all that is going on...You just take on the goal of what needs to be done to make her better & focus on that...


Sure there were nights rocking her to sleep in that hospital room, hearing the whispers of yet another doctor explain Pip's case, where I let the fears of what they were saying take over- But for the most part the thought of losing her wasn't an option... 


Craig & I knew there was a chance that she wouldn't make it....We never actually talked about it during the worst of it...But later, maybe even months later, we reflected how very scary & real that possibility could have been...I guess that's why seeing those pictures of her so frail & unwell really shook me up...


I can't thank Sweet Jesus enough that wasn't Pip's fate or ours...It amazes me the baby girl she is today...


Although I know many a babies go through a lot more- My Pip is the strongest person I know...No one will ever be able to top what she has in my mind...

So though she be but little, she indeed is fierce...

2 comments:

  1. Anonymous3.10.15

    She is beautiful!!!!! As a mommy of a 29 weeker who is currently in the NICU (today is day 25), it doesn't matter that other babies go through way more. What matters is that YOUR baby is going through her own personal journey and so are you and your husband. I am in the NICU all the time - I should probably take a break - I see teeny tiny babies. Babies much smaller than the 2 pounds my precious baby girl weighed at birth, but that does not take away from my angel's journey. It just reminds me to pray for those babies. It reminds me how strong they are. It reminds me to fight for my baby - especially on those days when she is too weak to fight for herself. I know what you meant when you said what you said, I just wanted to remind you that you our beautiful daughter's story is valid no matter what. I know you know that already though.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Ahhh thank you...Means so much!!! And hoping your 29 weeker is just as strong:)

      Delete