Days like today make me re-hash everything she's been through medically, discover where she falls developmentally according to doctors and makes me want to punch the word "milestone" in the neck.
Days like today make me understand how her needs will likely be met & hope special equipment & accommodations will be provided.
Days like today make me re-live what I don't often reflect on; surgeries, illnesses, hospital stays & medications.
Days like today make me feel the heavy of heart defects, Congenital Cataracts, Hypothyroidism, Celiac Disease & all Down syndrome carries along for the ride.
Days like today I feel myself on the verge of slipping into a rut.
But then I think of her. I think of what she brings to the table. I think of her how she's changed my world. I think of what she does for our family, our hometeam. I think of all the walls she's broken, milestone development charts she's proved wrong & the fact that she connects with me, with us, so deeply simply by being herself. I think of all the joy she brings, the contagious smile that no one can refuse & her need to get down to a beat, as much as humanly possibly.
I think of her this morning, as she tried so very hard to communicate. Her "toooo-ast" that she demanded for breakfast, followed by her ferociously signing "music" & then yelling out "Ma, Momma, Mom" cause I took too long for her liking.
I think of her this morning, as she proudly picked out her own sandals, took her dad by the hand & led him to the front door to take her to "school-aka-daycare."
I think of all the way-too-many-to-count beautiful moments that she brings into our lives every day. And all I know, despite days like today, is aren't we ever lucky...