14 Things that are Going to Happen in 2014

I have a problem...I'm that girl who has a make-believe life in changing rooms...


Please tell me y'all have done this & it's not just me...When you try on clothes, in your head do you have made up scenarios about where you will wear them and why you need them? I'm the worst & my imagination and make-believe life is so good, I actually have a hard time not buying into it...


Take yesterday...At a lovely little Target with about 37 items, all reduced to $5, my make-believe life was running rampant...I needed this shirt to drink Corona on a beach, this dress for a wedding I don't even know exists but could, this blouse for a garden party I like to think I'd one day attend, these jeans in case I lose 10 pounds and can actually do them up and of course this sports bra for the gym, I like to pretend to go to...All totally make-believe...


I know it's getting real bad & time to walk away, when what I'm trying on is only acceptable to wear on a resort in Punta Cana...Not that I've ever been to Punta Cana, but in my imaginary make-believe life & according to a rubber bin in our basement, I'm going one day...



All that to say, buying to buy just because of a sale is on my;            

List of 14 Things that are Going to Happen in 2014
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ONE: Spend less moula on useless crap...Let go of my imaginary changing room life...Hello reality, I'm a mumma of two small babes living in leggings & t-shirts...When & if I do get to go out on a date or for drinks with my gals, I have more than enough "old" outfits to get me by for a few hours...So my first resolution is to make more things - spend less money...Whether that's DIY crafts, decor, re-using items differently or simply making my own damn coffee instead of Starbucking it up all the time...



TWO: Somehow with my 2 hooligans, all Pip's medical appts, therapies, regular life & the blog, I somehow want to learn to manage my time a bit better - I need it to feel a bit more balanced...Not sure how I am going to go about it but there has to be a way...




THREE: Which brings me to this point...Making time...Needing time to write & finish my book...I'd say I'm halfway there at this point but in 2014 I want to set time aside to get er done...And if that happens & all the stars align, then a huge dream my entire life could come true...To get a book published...FINGERS CROSSED My Friends...



FOUR: Keep em crossed so that maybe that funny gal who I've been harassing, stalking, bugging will give me a call...I feel this year is the year...Come on Ellen...I seriously only want to meet you & help prank people...To have a bug in my ear & you tell me what to say to people would make me ridiculously happy...Weird dream to have eh?



FIVE: Learn more sign language...Pip's 1 now & while she sometimes bust out with "Mumma" that's about all she's got...A lot of blabbering & such but no clear words...So try to organically include signing in our everyday life...


SIX: I tell my husband this every single year but this time I'm serious {I think}....I want to lose this extra junk in my trunk & try to tame the bulge...



SEVEN: Do something special with just Noal...Whether that's take a class or gymnastics again- something where it's just the two of us spending time together...


EIGHT: Change it up...This year I want to do something different with my hair...It's been long & relatively along the same colour for ages...Want to mix it up - Big bold cut, Ombre colouring, something-anything, just time for a change...



NINE: Maybe this will help with #6 but I need to stop being a binge eater...I tend to eat healthier Mon to about Thursday but come Friday I'm all about ordering a pizza & then I spiral into a a teenage boy all weekend...I'm being 100% honest when I tell you I think a cheese ball is healthy...And now because I said it I have to stop writing, go gnaw at a hunk of cheese right from the package, pure class, I know, or I won't be able to stop thinking about it...Cheese, Cheese, Cheese...


TEN: Read more....Books that is...This past year with Happy Soul Project & all, it's been a pretty technical time in my life...Learning different programs, discovering new blogs, teaching myself HTML & other need-a-gin-or-I'll-lose-my-mind things...And while I'm happy with all I've accomplished, ecstatic with all the other writers/bloggers I've "met" & learned so very much online...I want to step away more in 2014 - I want to feel a book in my hands - I want to fall asleep reading a chapter not checking my phone...




ELEVEN: Seeing my husband's face this year with some of the beauties I've concocted in the kitchen is reason enough to have this as a resolution...The fact that he could barely swallow my chicken means I have work to do...I'm going to knock his snobby-chef-side-of-him socks off this year...





TWELVE: Some friends tell me it's a "nap strike"- Well bloody hell, whatever it is, it sucks arse... The strike has lasted well over a month now, it's not happening & I need to let go...I also need to get this boy into a toddler bed- Not only is he smuggling toys & crayons into his crib, take a look at the damn-beaver-of-a-chew-job he's doing to try & bust out of this prison...Also need him fully potty trained, I am so not a fan of this in between stage...




THIRTEEN: Do something for others...The last few years have been so self-absorbed...Getting engaged, then married, then baby after baby...It's sucked my time, energy, moula & life right outta me...But this year I want to do something to give back somehow...Whether that's simply more random acts of kindness, sponsoring a family next Christmas, volunteering somewhere...Just something to feel like I'm doing my part...



FOURTEEN: Continue to live with a grateful spirit, content heart & happy soul....Continue to acknowledge something I am grateful for each day...Continue to be thankful for the life I've been given, the path I am on...And continue to try & have a happy soul with whatever comes my way...


"Be in love with your life, every minute of it" - Jack Kerouac




So friends, I am excited for 2014...Excited to see all that it will bring..When the blog first started one of the first things I ever wrote was I truly believe the "best is yet to come" ....And I felt that than but even more so now...I feel like this is the year for me - for my family...


And while my changing room life seems adventurous & exciting, my everyday life is pretty damn brilliant...And you never know, maybe 2014 will bring with it a reason to wear one of those binned Punta Cana outfits or maybe I should go back to Target & get a $5 blouse for my book signing or even better a $5 dress for when I'm on Ellen...


Dream big right friends? Hope all your dreams big, small, silly & all come true for you...Happy 2014...

Bright & Beautiful

This Christmas, like Pip's birthday, held with it so much JOY...Heck this Christmas felt like a lovely Holiday Card bringing with it JOY~HOPE~PEACE...It held with it so much that Christmas is meant to be...It held with it such a celebration compared to the last...

I can barely remember last year, when I try it's all such a blur...Pip was only 10 days old, and all we knew that Christmas day was that Down syndrome had been confirmed but other test still needed to be done, other Specialist still needed to be seen...We were given this baby & told she had significant heart and eye problems...But because of the holidays we had to wait till that first week in January to meet with doctors, follow up with exams, confirm what our Pediatrician suspected Pip had...It was dark, dark moments in my life...Probably the darkest...

Those moments in a way feel so far away- That dark & doubt in those days seem a lifetime ago...

But I have to remember those moments...They are important in their own way to this journey I have been on with Pip...They formed how we as a little family grieved, grew and blossomed...They are the reason I held Pip a bit tighter, snugged her a bit longer & was in a constant state of gratefulness this Christmas...


Those dark days are a part of why are days now, are so very bright...


And this Christmas it felt absolutely nothing but Bright & Beautiful...It was full of giggles, chocolate, ice storms that tried to ruin my only planned date in 3 years with my husband, Christmas movies, hide & seek, family game nights, cheesecake, specs for everyone, mimosas, hotel swimming pools, kisses, early morning wake-ups, Noal eating Santa's milk & cookies, surprise gifts that made me think I was on candid camera from my brother, cozy pjs, dancing with cousins, snuggles to stay warm, late night Euchre games, traditions, celebrating Festivus, tickle monsters, giving my dad projects because my husband is cute but not so handy, tissue paper & box forts, adorable baby girl outfits, gag gifts, eating ridiculous amounts of food, smooching the chef, first hockey skates, two year old excitement for everything, Chinese Food on the Eve, Grandparents spoiling the hooligans rotten & just an overall happiness to just be...Just be in the moment with my little family...




















Friends, I hope y'all had the same...A Bright & Beautiful Christmas...I hope you felt JOY~HOPE~PEACE in your own way somehow...

Much love, 

Please Stop This Train....

Warning: Picture Overload...If I were you, I'd grab a cup of tea, scroll to the bottom of this post & hit the lovely sound clip, come on back to the top & soak in Pip's first birthday....



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As a mum I've gone the go with the flow-find my own way kinda path...While books and expert advice is great and all, for me parenting is all about my gut, my heart & the help of other mummas I think are kinda amazing...


That all being said there is one thing I hear over & over & actually take to heart...Anything along the lines of, "Time flies- Enjoy them when their little cause it last only a second or I'd give anything for my children to be babies again"...You know, that kinda thing...


So cliche but true...


While I normally just nod and smile at the old lady in the doctor's waiting room, telling me to enjoy Pip's snuggles because she's going to grow up so fast...I can honestly sense her sorrow in missing her own "babies" {who are probably as old as my parents}...I think it's something as a mum you kinda yearn after years later, all the while trying to take in as much as you can when it's happening...


As Pip's 1st birthday came & went I couldn't help but get on board that cliche-time-is-speeding-by-mumma-train...



I want time to pause...



And right now in my life, in this sweet phase of snuggles & cuddles, it would be a fantastic time to stop that train...




I really can't believe she is ONE....So much, yet so little, has happened in that year...It was so bogged down with fear, worry, & doubt...It was draped with surgeries, doc appointments, hospital stays and therapies...It was so very different & so much faster than Noal's first year...


She doesn't really seem ONE in a way because she still feels like such a baby compared to Noal at his first birthday- She's not talking, has no teeth, isn't crawling or walking and while she eats she still breastfeeds like a bloody newborn...Her milestones are behind but in weird way I kinda don't mind...It's kinda nice to have her as a "baby" for awhile longer...


It's kinda nice to have this time with her like this, because I feel it got cut short in the beginning with everything else...


So, while it was a typical 1st Birthday Tea Party on the outside- On the inside it was a huge, enormous really, celebration to me...While our friends, delicious cakes, lovely prezzies & such, were all fabulous - It's what I was feeling inside that mattered- Tiny fireworks of love, pride & happiness were going off...I was just so overwhelmed with absolute gratefulness & felt a big celebration was needed...


So with each croissant eaten, each tear Pippy shed while refusing cake {honestly I was questioning if she was mine at that point- Hello, cake is a major food group in my life- no daughter of mine will ever shed tears eating cake again- we'll be working on that}, each sip of Baileys or white wine drank, each clank of her darling vintage tea cup & each picture taken of her with her little friends- I was just loving up celebrating my girl...











SideNote: There was no question whether Noal was invited to the Tea Party...Absolutely NOT...Within minutes of him getting home from daycare, cake was smashed into the floor & down his hatch, teacups were broken & balloons were ripped down...Instead, before he left that morning he made sure his Monkey George was part of the decor, helping to give out tea from our handmade tea box with Pip's hand & feet painted on it...We also had a family party the next day in which Noal refused to acknowledge it was Pip's big day, instead telling everyone & singing "Happy Birday to Noal"...




So celebrate we did...I've been honest about the year we've had & in a way it was also about celebrating all of us- Our little family- Surviving what has happened & finding joy within it...I'm so proud of that..




At one point I said to my friends I always pictured a one year old at their party clapping for some reason...And Pip had only done it a few times thus far, but low and behold she gave her mumma a good old clap in that moment...


Once again reminding me that while she hasn't hit the "typical" milestones she has achieved so much more...She above all else is teaching me what every mother has tried to say, "Enjoy the moments, Slow down, Enjoy Me"...