In exactly one week I will be sitting in a waiting room, nervously, subconsciously tapping my foot, not paying any particular attention to whatever Craig is saying, getting annoyed by whomever is in the waiting room with us & desperately longing for the surgeons to come out & tell me my Pip is okay...In this week leading up to the day, I imagine it will be a lot like the last...I won't sleep much, I'll just stare at her most of the night before the surgery, begging God/Fate/Karma to once again keep her safe, I will be antsy all week & tears somehow will fall & come out of nowhere...Until at last the surgeons take her & I collapse weeping & fall into Craig's arms...


At least based on the last eye & heart surgery experiences, this is what I am anticipating to happen...Except last time she was only 5 weeks old, and although I loved her dearly she was just a tiny newborn...


This time is different - This time she is so much more...


This time she's a daughter, who Craig looks at like no one else on the planet...



This time she's a sister, who Noal protects, snugs & gives his all to make laugh...





This time she's a niece, who is adored by her Uncle Air & Auntie Ash...A granddaughter, who is spoiled beyond belief & holds such a special, sweet spot in her grandparent's hearts...And even a great-granddaughter who made my grandpa's wish to hold her before he died come true...



This time she's a inspiration to so many people because of her ongoing strength, her sweet little spirit & her undeniable ability to light up a room with her smile...A unbelievable smile that seems to start in her toes, take over her entire body till it comes out & makes anyone happy just looking at her...

This time she's my funny little mouse who brings such joy & beauty to our family...



This time she has grown into my little Pip...



This time I have 8 more months worth of love, 8 more months worth of being in awe of such a beautiful little soul & 8 more months of having the honour of being her mum...This time I have 8 months more of her to lose...

So, this time I am scared...Right scared...