Well it happened...I got the call...The anticipated yet dreaded call from CHEO {Childrens Hospital of Eastern Ontario} arranging for Reids heart surgery...Heres the thing, I was under the impression that they wanted her to be as big & strong as could be, I didnt realize as soon as she hit over the 5 kilogram mark it was go time...I mean I knew this day would come, I just didnt realize it would be in the next few weeks...


My mind is spinning to be honest- about everything...We meet next week with the team of surgeons to discuss her options & the risks & all that jazz...At that time they will also be sedating her to do a bunch of ultrasounds, an echo cardiogram & other fun filled test. Thats all I know until then...Medically speaking I guess...
 
Personally speaking I know a few things...I am one terrified, anxious, worried little mumma...I had a little breakdown when the hubs got home & I tried to tell him about the call...Its just all a bit overwhelming at times.
 
I have pretty much "hunted down" anyone who I can find who has been through this- Other mums, bloggers & friend's through Down syndrome groups...I've asked as much as I could to prepare myself...Or as Craig likes to call it, "I've Barbara Walter's" them....The one thing that seems to be consistent is that everyone claims after the surgery "it's like a different baby" and that their "so much more alive"...So, hoping I can be among those mums/bloggers/friends who can one day say that about my little Reid...I just keep staring at her, willing everything to be okay & holding her as much as I physically can...
 
Today the hubs let me sleep in {till 7:45 folks, dont get too excited that is sleeping in these days} & I just held her in bed, enjoying the moment with only her...Those moments are rare, as Noal usually is hanging on to me or wanted to hold his "Reeeee"...So, I got to soak up as much of my Reid as I could before my mind wandered too far & I wanted to weep...I stopped it before I went there, gave her as many kisses as I could & prayed  to Sweet Jesus that all will be well & I can spend many a mornings doing just this...
 
 
So, once again friends please keep my darling Reid in your thoughts these upcoming weeks...And maybe send up one or two for me so that I dont have a nervous breakdown...